He doesn't forget

Today is one of those days, or rather should I say one of those weeks. Work has been a little more hectic than usual. I was supposed to be in my house as of Wednesday, but now it looks like it may not be until the 1st of next week. It's not that big of a deal, but I've got a narrow time frame and this just makes it narrower. Throw in a lack of communication with the bank and it just makes it a little more hectic.

This morning, a dear friend of mine told me something that she read in her devotion, "I can't change things. But God can." How I needed to hear that. I know that this situation (and so is everything in life for that matter) is completely out of my control but God is fully in control. He's so capable. He is so God and I'm not.

I had an interesting thing that happened this week and it again made me marvel at how God works. A little backstory first: When i was college, one of my BCM friends was in the National Guard and deployed to Cuba. Before he left, he gave several of us names of people in his unit to pray for while they were deployed. My name was a guy named Matt. Well, I prayed for Matt. I never knew anything about him, never heard from him, didn't know anything. That was in 2002. Fast fwd to 2009. I "became friends" on FB with a girl that I went to high school with. Rebecca was a few classes ahead of me. We haven't been in touch since high school (almost 12 years for her!)I saw on her info that she was married to a guy named Matt who had the same last name as my prayer buddy Matt. It's not a very common last name and I was curious to see if it was the same one. So i emailed her to see if her husband was in the guard and deployed at that time. Turns out, it was the same Matt!!!!! I just thought that was the coolest thing....that I was praying for him while they were dating and he was deployed. I love how God works and how He doesn't forget important things. I know that He forgets our sins and I'm so thankful for that...but you know what I mean when i say that He doesn't forget.

This morning, I was thinking about that story and about everything going on right now. I'm so thankful that God doesn't forget. That He doesn't forget about me. That He doesn't forget the secret desires of my heart, the dreams that I have for myself, the secret dreams that no one else knows (going to Croatia was one of those.....i had always dreamed of going overseas and knew that I would one day, but no one else knew that.)

He doesn't forget that I desire to be a wife and a mom above being a social worker. He hasn't forgotten about what He showed me about being in ministry while I was in GA. He hasn't forgotten all the things that He whispers to my heart, even when I'm not still long enough or quiet enough to hear them. He hasn't forgotten about the the hard times of the past few months. He hasn't forgotten about the time I spent in the wildnerness of grief, wondering if I was ever going to find my way out of it. He hasn't forgotten about the times that I question Him, wondering if dissapointment is around the corner again. He hasn't forgotten about the calling that He has placed on my life, even before I was born.

At times, it is so easy to get discouraged and get bogged down with what we don't see or what is going around in our lives. But God doesn't forget about us....for that I'm thankful.